26 - Behavior Change

By Kay Heitsch

After seeing Todd's body in the casket, I was convinced he was not there. But where was he? My Aunt Carmeleta tried to tell me he was there, but it was obvious Todd was gone.

I drove out to the accident site a few times. I'd sit and think, "This is where Todd left his body."

When I bought this paperback Bible, I would hold it to my face and say. "Please teach me what I need to learn and unlearn." I don't remember if I asked about Todd, but somehow I knew God understood.

I got up each morning at 4:00 am and studied until the kids got up. I'd go to bed at night and be studying again.

You have to know I never liked to study. It was strange enough that I was reading Dr. Peale's books from the library, but now I was reading the Bible.

I couldn't understand this total change in my behavior. I was learning so much.

But I was still on a mission to find out where Todd was.