By Kay Heitsch
As the days went by, the haze and numbness began to fade. This was good and also not so good. The haze and numbness helped keep me from facing reality head-on.
One early morning, my neighbor called. Sandi asked what I was doing. I told her someone was stopping over. Sandi asked if I was dressed, and I told her I was still in my robe. Sandi was surprised, and so was I. Sandi said she would hang up so I could get dressed.
Sandi didn't need to hang up because I didn't get dressed. I was still in my robe when this visitor arrived. I was finding I didn't care. This was so odd for me. Things that seemed so important didn't matter anymore.
Later that morning, I noticed we would need some groceries. I got Brandon and myself dressed and headed to the grocery store for the first time since Todd died.
I began walking up and down the aisles. I had several items in the cart when I reached for Mueslix cereal. It was as if the box were hot. I pulled my hand back. This was Todd's favorite cereal. I realized I no longer needed it.
I started to shake, and I thought I was going to cry. I grabbed Brandon, leaving the cart right in the aisle, and ran out the grocery store door.
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